I. Am. Scared. | From The First Lady of Loud News Net
In my previous article, I mentioned how I wasn’t brought up color conscious. I now realize that because of that I didn’t grow up with the fear of being shot while jogging, shot while sleeping, shot while watching tv, or essentially, shot while being black and breathing.
I didn’t think about being discriminated against because of the color of my skin and I’m thankful for that because quite frankly anyone that has a problem with another person because of their skin tone, the way their God-given hair grows out of their head, their religious beliefs, or who they love …well that’s not my problem. That’s their problem.
But now I’m just angry, disillusioned. Scared.
Seeing all of the bullshit that continues to go on leaving a trail of bloody black bodies has me sick.
Now I am scared to take a walk in my predominantly white neighborhood in a town close to another that is known for its racism. Should I have factored that in when searching for a home?
I am scared that my self proclaimed “red neck” neighbor who pisses on his own trees will shoot me dead and claim he thought I was one of the many geese that enjoy our lawn. Cuz let’s face it, we are both “brown” and “animals”.
I’m scared my son who is half Latino will get stopped by the wrong cop because of the car he drives…cuz he’s not white and oh yeah probably sells drugs.
I. Am. Scared.
And I don’t like the feeling. God didn’t give us a spirit of fear. That is man made. He didn’t put us on this earth to be persecuted and treated like animals. That shit is man made.
The protests. The looting. The violence. It’s getting us nowhere . When will real change come? How will real change come? Because obviously this world is full of ignorant racist fucks who feel emboldened to do and say anything they want thanks to that orange dump truck wannabe dictator “in charge” who literally spews garbage every time he opens his ugly little mouth.
A 17 year old gun toting imbecile kills two people, gets a bottle of water and then travels home to another state a free “man” while a black man gets a knee to his neck for 8 minutes and 46 seconds. Murdered over $20?
A woman is shot in her sleep and the cops responsible for ending her life didn’t get charged with murder? Instead one gets charged for “wanton endangerment” for bullets flying into a white couple’s adjacent apartment?
But no justice for Breonna? No wanton endangerment charges for the 6 bullets that flew into her body? Or the 20 min that went by before anyone bothered to check on her while her life ebbed away? Wtf?
What kind of world do we live in? Seriously.